Soul Stranger: PROBLEMS.

When boredom strikes and when I've things to shared, I let my diary know everything what I'm going through. Thinking back the time, people did say I've changed. Bad to worse, innocent to wild, I don't know, you tell me. Well, whatever it is. I'm so so bored now. I miss everyone. My friends, beloved sisters who are always there when I need them most, my lepak friends(both Farhan, Azhar and more to mention)
Im taking this oppurtunity to show my gratitude to the people who had make my life wonderful.
First of all, my family. Well, I'll say that my Mom is the one who had helped me most. Love you. Although I dont even say this once to you face to face, now I am. She's the one who has been looking after me all this while. My Dad too but I just can't seems to communicate with him well. Its hard for a young teen like to me to communicate with a MONSTER-LIKE looking father. He seems not to be understanding and I dont like that. Go change to be a better person. How I wish you could. Pigs will fly then.
Followed by my friends[darling sisters]. I've known them for like 8 years and our friendship are still going on strong. Although there's ups and downs, we put it aside and start anew. Forgive we can, forget I cant. That's for sure. Thanks to you all for making my life wonderful and colorful.
New friends are found whenever we are. I met Ika, a girl in the same CCA as me. She's been there when I had some misunderstandings with my school stuffs and also help me solved my recent problem. She and her hubby, Farhan. Well, not only them but there's one more. Farhan. There's two Farhan. I realised that I've not been with you all lately. I know. I'm busy and so that's why. I'm sorry. And I wont forget you all. You all and your good deeds towards me. Thanks for helping me with my problem with Man. And Farhan, I wont forget you. Although now, I'm closer with your friends, but I wont forget you. Trust me. Sorry if I had been rude or stubborn towards you guys. I didnt mean it. Hope I'm forgivven.
Well, till here.

NOW.
The problem that are going on my mind.
STUDIES.
I had been enjoying my life too much and studies I hack care. I mean I did study and concentrate during lessons. It's just that when I wanted to start revising my work, I just cant seems to focus. I'm not me. Any solutions?
LIFE.
I hate this most. Ginnie said it's true. I'm falling in love again. But hey, I'm afraid too. I'm scared and afraid that history repeats itself. We are getting to know each other better and I have that 'abit' feelings toward him. But, I dont know if he does. I dont want to be vain. So let future decides it. I like his personality and can interact with anyone. Usually we never fails to chat or sms. But now, when his pp8 low, we cant get through each other.Neither through sms or chat. I started to miss him. Its a sudden feeling. I dont know. 2 days we have not been chatting. I've waited from 8pm till 12 midnight for the past 2 days but no sign of him. I wondered and waiting. And I really hoped today he would go online. I'm praying. and praying. Oh well, get over it lah Seri.
FREEDOM
I want freedom! I mean I want to have fun and enjoy my life. Maybe not now or the time has not come. I want to be the beloved ones that cares for me. I want more and more pocket money. I want to go shopping!! I want new stuffs and I want my wishes to come true. Is it possible? No idea.

I guess I've express everything here.
They say it's not good to bottle up so I through it all here.
And now, I'm confused.
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THEM.