PROBLEMS
The pain I went through all this while,
The heartaches I suffered.
No one knows,
No one sees.
I covered it with a fake smile
Together along with an attitude.
Somehow I feel life is meaningless for me.
Why live when no one bothers.
No one concerns about me.
No one cares about me.
Having a parent is like having none.
I mean, YES I DO have.
But both are busy to keep an eye on me.
Problems went all round my head.
Headaches is what I'm having now.
So much to do, so little time.
Future, Life and Upcomings.
This year has been a total different for me. I learnt to be a better person. I developed self confident in myself .And somehow, I learnt to be strong to face and overcome any obstacles ahead. I've decided for my future.
As the exams are round the corner, I've planned to give my best for this end of the year. The one week break is coming and so I decided to do some revision and keep in pace with what my subject teachers are teaching.
During the weekdays, I will revising and do assessment on different subjects per day. I'll split every subjects on different days to study and divide the amount of topics to cover. Also I'll be busy with remedials and also CCA. And I vow to myself to cover all the topics I've learnt and to pass my end year exams. I hope so. I want start now before it's too late. I want complete my Sec 2 life with no regrets. In order to be in the subjects class I want next year, I have to strived and try hard for it. I must ACHIEVED it. I want put a smile on my parents' face. They have been busy with their work and they've put high hopes on me. Although I'm not the eldest among the family, but they say I'm the cleverest among the siblings. I'm not saying that I'm proud or what. But then it's a compliment afterall. I'd rather suffered now and enjoy later. But somehow I realized that I had difficulties on concentrating on my studies. I kept thinking of the past and I know well that it's not worth it. But I must be determined. =)
And I'm not saying that I'm spending my holidays studying but instead on weekends I want to ease my mind. After a 5-days study and revising. Saturdays towning and esplanding. Sundays, religious class and then I wish could have Family Day Out. How I hope so. FAT HOPE!
Relationships.
I don't want have one at the moment cos I know if I have one, my mind will not be stable. HAHA. And so, its totally not now. Maybe after exams. Haha. I won't be able to know what's for the future but I can decide. Haha. Even now, I'm single, I keep thinking or reminisce of the past. It's useless. And I know that. With the courage from my friend, I'm determined to focus on my studies. Studies comes first. Future can decide later. Haha.
The heartaches I suffered.
No one knows,
No one sees.
I covered it with a fake smile
Together along with an attitude.
Somehow I feel life is meaningless for me.
Why live when no one bothers.
No one concerns about me.
No one cares about me.
Having a parent is like having none.
I mean, YES I DO have.
But both are busy to keep an eye on me.
Problems went all round my head.
Headaches is what I'm having now.
So much to do, so little time.
Future, Life and Upcomings.
This year has been a total different for me. I learnt to be a better person. I developed self confident in myself .And somehow, I learnt to be strong to face and overcome any obstacles ahead. I've decided for my future.
As the exams are round the corner, I've planned to give my best for this end of the year. The one week break is coming and so I decided to do some revision and keep in pace with what my subject teachers are teaching.
During the weekdays, I will revising and do assessment on different subjects per day. I'll split every subjects on different days to study and divide the amount of topics to cover. Also I'll be busy with remedials and also CCA. And I vow to myself to cover all the topics I've learnt and to pass my end year exams. I hope so. I want start now before it's too late. I want complete my Sec 2 life with no regrets. In order to be in the subjects class I want next year, I have to strived and try hard for it. I must ACHIEVED it. I want put a smile on my parents' face. They have been busy with their work and they've put high hopes on me. Although I'm not the eldest among the family, but they say I'm the cleverest among the siblings. I'm not saying that I'm proud or what. But then it's a compliment afterall. I'd rather suffered now and enjoy later. But somehow I realized that I had difficulties on concentrating on my studies. I kept thinking of the past and I know well that it's not worth it. But I must be determined. =)
And I'm not saying that I'm spending my holidays studying but instead on weekends I want to ease my mind. After a 5-days study and revising. Saturdays towning and esplanding. Sundays, religious class and then I wish could have Family Day Out. How I hope so. FAT HOPE!
Relationships.
I don't want have one at the moment cos I know if I have one, my mind will not be stable. HAHA. And so, its totally not now. Maybe after exams. Haha. I won't be able to know what's for the future but I can decide. Haha. Even now, I'm single, I keep thinking or reminisce of the past. It's useless. And I know that. With the courage from my friend, I'm determined to focus on my studies. Studies comes first. Future can decide later. Haha.
posted by Seri Nadzia @ 10:50 PM
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