I was suppose to attend training yesterday but I couldnt stand up. My left leg muscle was still aching. I cried in pain and in the end, I didnt attend for training. Woke up at around 12 and wash up all. Granny gave me a good massage and i scream like hell.
Later in the noon, Mom asked to accompany her to bank and then get some stuffs at AMK Hub. Went to pay all the house bills then headed to AMK Hub, I bought myself the green havaianas that Ive been craving for. Then went browsing around. Sis bought herself a white leather tote bag at BEGA. After getting our stuffs, went to NTUC Fairprice to shop somekitchen stuffs and then headed to MacDonald to have our supper and 265ed home. & now, my leg is still aching.
Ive got no mood to blog anymore, Ill either change link or maybe close down this blog.
Im on the verge of losing my love ones. I dont want say much. Im the cause of everything. Thanks to me for causing lots of shits to happen this year. Ive planned to revise during this week but I cant. My mind is wondering elsewhere, thinking about other stuffs and I cant focus. Im giving up in studies. For sure, Im gonna make my parents down again this final year examinations. Whats the use of Mom hiring me a tuitor? I dont have confidence that I'll success in studies. Let it be if I have to drop to the Academic stream. If i try to study, but my mind is elsewhere, then whats the use? I wanna end everything. I dont suffer anymore and I dont want to see my love ones to shed a tear because of me. Blame me for being in this situation. Blame me for being so stupid, not thinking of whats more important and what comes first. I am to be blame for all this shits.
I can change if I want to, but the trust to regain back from them is difficult. People always say that its difficult to trust someone whom have once broke a trust. So thats it. Ive left with no other choice, its either, I step out from their life and moved on with my own life, or solve it. But i know if this matter is solved, still, Im gonna feel awkward and I know I'll be treat differently and coldly. Im confused, I dont want leave them but ... Somethings are better left to be unsaid. I appreciate everything they gave. Memories will still be kept deep down in my heart. Im sorry. I failed.
I know I hurt you alot and make you cry ALOT. Im sorry. I know you'll say sorry is easy to say but deep down in your heart ... Let me go far away from you girls. I know what Im doing this time. I want to know no one. I dont want get close with anyone. Take care.
Later in the noon, Mom asked to accompany her to bank and then get some stuffs at AMK Hub. Went to pay all the house bills then headed to AMK Hub, I bought myself the green havaianas that Ive been craving for. Then went browsing around. Sis bought herself a white leather tote bag at BEGA. After getting our stuffs, went to NTUC Fairprice to shop somekitchen stuffs and then headed to MacDonald to have our supper and 265ed home. & now, my leg is still aching.
Ive got no mood to blog anymore, Ill either change link or maybe close down this blog.
Im on the verge of losing my love ones. I dont want say much. Im the cause of everything. Thanks to me for causing lots of shits to happen this year. Ive planned to revise during this week but I cant. My mind is wondering elsewhere, thinking about other stuffs and I cant focus. Im giving up in studies. For sure, Im gonna make my parents down again this final year examinations. Whats the use of Mom hiring me a tuitor? I dont have confidence that I'll success in studies. Let it be if I have to drop to the Academic stream. If i try to study, but my mind is elsewhere, then whats the use? I wanna end everything. I dont suffer anymore and I dont want to see my love ones to shed a tear because of me. Blame me for being in this situation. Blame me for being so stupid, not thinking of whats more important and what comes first. I am to be blame for all this shits.
I can change if I want to, but the trust to regain back from them is difficult. People always say that its difficult to trust someone whom have once broke a trust. So thats it. Ive left with no other choice, its either, I step out from their life and moved on with my own life, or solve it. But i know if this matter is solved, still, Im gonna feel awkward and I know I'll be treat differently and coldly. Im confused, I dont want leave them but ... Somethings are better left to be unsaid. I appreciate everything they gave. Memories will still be kept deep down in my heart. Im sorry. I failed.
I know I hurt you alot and make you cry ALOT. Im sorry. I know you'll say sorry is easy to say but deep down in your heart ... Let me go far away from you girls. I know what Im doing this time. I want to know no one. I dont want get close with anyone. Take care.
posted by Seri Nadzia @ 4:09 PM
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