Look back to the past and fall for you? Gahhh, I don't know. :/

Yesterday work was hell. It was relaxing but then I had to wait for this two drunken angmoh customer to finish up their red wine. But the fun part was that he was too drunken that when he was settling his bills, he asked me, "Alright, I'm gonna enter a $50 tip is that a great amount for you?" And I was blushing throughout and just smile. Fast cash eh, and was told that I was the FOH, settled bill for another solo angmoh guy and he give me $10 tip. I think I brought home alot of money yesterday. Haha! Mrted back home with Ernie and then ordered Macdonalds for late supper with Sis.

Right, I was msning with this old friend of mine after bumping into each other in the train when I was on the way to work that day and we exchange numbers and such. Oh and he's a close friend of my ex boyfriend. The last time we met was like a year or more ago. So on Monday night, we chat on the phone till dawn. Man, I miss all the past with him and he never fails to make my day. We laugh, joke, disturb each other and calling each other names and such. Seriously, frankly speaking, I'm so used to talk to him like friend and we can click well, no deny. Even NESHQ also said that he's a nice person to talk with. (& I'll bet, he'll smile when he reads it) I fucking miss him like hell and he does too. On the other hand, I'm happy to hear from him that he had found his right one whom can shower him love and happiness unlike I do last time in the past when I was still with him. Their love grow each day unlike ours last time. It was growing one minute and next, it was fading till we lose contact of each other. Nevertheless I still think that he's still the best ex boyfriend whom I can click with and I don't have to watch out my words and all unlike Dearest.


Talking about Dearest, he called me yesterday after I ended work. Farhan told me to text him regarding some stuffs and then afterwhich he gave me a call and chat for awhile. Asking each other how we're doing and coping with life and such and then the next minute, he was giving me some talks on setting up a business and such. It was so random of him to ask me and I was laughing all the way and I think he was pissed off. The reason I can't stop laughing was because his pronounciation of those words and the way he speaks is as if he's acting like one angmoh bastard! Angmoh no, but bastard maybe. HAHAHHA! I was suppose to meet him later at 5pm to go for the talk but I passed. I bet his angry but who cares, I myself am not so keen about it. So yeah, part of me I feel regret cause I didn't get to have a glance of his face but after what Nazzeh told me; He'll only come and contact me whenever he's in need for help or such and then the next minute, he'll gone for so long and the cycle repeats. Aiyo, why must he behave that way? Towards his own brothers too. After the incident, he wouldn't dare to face them or keep in touch with them anymore. That puzzles me the most. Why can't he just forget everything and start anew? Is it so hard? Sighs.

And after chatting with him on the phone for quite sometime, we hang up and he text me saying he miss me and all. I was touched as for the fact that he remembered the first time we met way back then. It was like a year ago sey. But likewise I told myself not to let the history repeats itself time and again. I've had enough of all those shits and I so do not want to go through it again. He is so good at sweet talking that made me thinks that I still deserve the chance but I know it's fat hope. I'll only wait and see how far he can go on with this kind of life. I bet it won't be for long and that's final. Still, like I said last time in my previous post, I hate how he treat me but I still love him.

And as for the other him, he never fails to disturb me and calls me Mok whereas I called him either Galah or Panjang. I know Panjang sounds so wrong but he's cool with anything. He'll just find any nice names to call me and make sure it describes me. I'm really sorry that I guessed your birthday wrongly. The funny part was I shouted his real name confidently. "Shut up ah Dzulqifli!" but actually it was Dzulfiqar. Funny giler, he himself laugh. Oh well, guess I think I'm in dilemma again. He knows me to well that I can't even hide my feelings or anything towards him anymore. Boriiingg! But boy, thanks for spending your nights with me till dawn. :D



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Enough, I think am gonna get ready soon to meet up with the Motley people. I'm missing them la. And 7-11 too! Soon ehh. :D