I just don't fucking understand. We once lose contact and now what again? I'm pissed, in fact fucking pissed. I myself don't know why. Its like I'm so used that we talk on the phone till dawn and now what? You're saying that last night was the last since your mom would be taking all your cards away for quite sometime. Hello, please define the 'sometime' for me cause I know it would be for long. And I hate it when something is amiss ed in my life. I know we are not an item and that we have nothing going on but I feel so empty. I mean like I'm so used to like talking on the phone with you and now, no longer. And I didn't pick up your calls to hear your explanation because why? I'm ego. I was in fact crying that night and insisted on picking up your calls. And now what, I regret. Cause why, I've been staring at my hand phone screen waiting for your call and talk and joke with you. But I doubt you're gonna call me anytime soon. Its already 2:30am and nothing from you. I'm waiting, waiting now. I know you meet her today but he told me he saw you 2 hours ago, sending her off. And yesterday you told me you can still call me like how we use to call each other when we were an item way back then and that you would still use public phones or find anyway to get through me, but now where are you?! I fucking miss you and I fucking wanna hear your voice and I want you to fucking accompany me now! I don't know what and who I want now and that's it. I'm driving myself crazy and I totally hate feeling this way at this crucial time! I miss being love, hugs, kissed and more. Most importantly, I miss having a boyfriend!