It's been a week eversince I last blog. Yes, I'm busy with school and also extra classes in the preparation for my big major O levels examinations which is in 69days time or prolly lesser than that. Gosh, time flies so fast then I didn't realize Dooms' are on its way. I must (*1000) do well and end in at least a Polytechnic to continue surviving my education cause I don't wish to see my 16years of education gone to waste just like that. I rather don't go school in that case and use the money on some other useful things right? Haha. Well enough of talking about O's. I don't want to count down to the days. So yeah, basically my one week is full of different feelings. Be it happy, bitter or sweet. All happened within a week.



Monday, 23rd June 2008.

It was the first day of school and NESHQ was supposed to be chatting on the phone till dawn but in the end, we went to sleep and didn't call each other. So yeah, I was busy msging M and the sweetest part was that he wake me up at 6am and only then he went to sleep. A new term, new timetable and basically everything's new and school ended at 4.45pm almost everyday besides Wednesdays and Friday due to Art and we had to stay till 6plus at least to print our calligraph boards. Lessons went as per normal till 2.10pm and then headed for lunch for 30 minutes and then back to class for another 2 hours of extra classes. The only different thing is that different days would be having different subject for extra classes. So yeah. & I'm starting to have this feeling that Dearest will call me up at night and he did but I was already asleep. Sucha waste.



Tuesday, 24th June 2008.

Had normal lessons and we had to stay for extra classes. It was Geography and Social Studies but since Mrs Chatterji wasn't in school, we headed home instead. Piles of homework was given and yet to be completed asap but I doubt it's possible for me to clear them up within a week. After change and stuffs, I went out with Aunt, Uncle and Dewi over to Causeway Point Night Market to buy some food and I saw Dearest and friends. Hello-ed and chatted with them for awhile and bidded goodbye. Later at night, he called me up and we chatted for wee hours and then went to sleep. & not forgetting complete my homework and guess what, Ms Tay informed us that we're having a Trigonometry Test on Thursday.



Wednesday, 25th June 2008.

Did the normal things in school and during PE had to complete our 2.4km and I failed. By few minutes. Too bad, no more stamina due to long term break. & yeah, stayback for Art class up till 530pm and headed home with Ernie. I mean it's like everyday since Monday I've been going home with Ernie by 169bus. The reason is because I can at least have my nap and then fresh awake at home to complete my homeworks. & Dearest called me up and we chatted for few hours and I off to bed.



Thursday, 26th June 2008.

Woke up late and was rushing to school and yes, NESHQ was late but luckily it was the first time for this Term. Stayback for Science remedial, Physics first followed by Biology. And I force Dearest to fetch me up after school during lunch. NESHQ together with Dearest bus-ed home and then E and us bus-ed 169 home. He sent me off to the lift. The sweetest part was he offered to carry my school bag cause I kept whining to him that my bag was too heavy. Heh. Thanks Dearest! Chatted with him for wee hours and I was pissed after she called me up and told me the shocking news.

He was msging her when I was on the phone with him. And fuck him, he told me the reason was actually to just to make friends only. Why must it be her? Why can't E instead? Seriously he really hurt me deeply this time round and I cried over the phone. I rejected his calls alot of times and he said sorry. I don't wish to elaborate more cause I will get pissed. Just imagine if you girls were to be in my shoes.



Friday, 27th June 2008.

We were late again and I was in no mood to study and concentrate on the lessons. 4 lessons was gone just like that. All I did was to cry in class and mute myself. Worst, after she showed me his msgs. I elaborate on that later. Stayed back for Art and gotten back my Trigo Test paper which we did yesterday and I failed like I was just expecting it. See Ms Tay after school and then went to do my Art till 6plus and went home.



Saturday, 28th June 2008.

Meet Cik Eton up at Marsiling and I saw Jambron in the train. Over to the Fuchun Community Centre area there to fetch the cousins and then 912ed to Causeway Point to lunch at Breeks. Meet up with FNF Gang; Eugene, Ernie, Kriss & Reesha at Suntec and then over to Heeren. Yes, we camwhore alot but I'll upload all photos asap in the next post. Ohya, saw Dinneezel when I was about to take the train over to town. Mrted and bused over to Cik Eton's house for a sleepover. Will be heading back to granny's place on later in the afternoon.



Sunday, 29th June 2008.






So yes, we went to Causeway Point's Seoul Garden to dine with Atok and Nenek along. Bahh, lazy to elaborate more.




I'm very disappointed in you. I don't mind you making friends with them and I don't mind you msging and contacting them but seriously why must you msg her instead of the other one? You know I cried when the day you ask me those questions during our conversation at the phone and I was so scared that it will happen and yeah, it did. I never in my whole entire life cried just because my bf or someone that I love most contacting with other girls or even worst my very own friend that I've known for the past 10years. I've yet to know you only less than 10 months and I cried helplessly the whole night. My eyes was swollen and infact it lasted for 2 days straight. I went to school and teachers notice the different in me on that day. All you did was to just say sorry and then get over it and that's all. You just don't understand how I feel. Shockingly when she showed me the intension of why you msg her. Like what they say the truth hurts. But for me IT REALLY HURTS ALOT HAIZAL. It really did. I rather you told me off straight away last time. I know you make it clear to me on 10th January 2008 to move on with my life and you'll move on with yours too cause you make it clear that we'll never end up back together again. I did but no one that I'm into tend to appear in my life to replace you. Infact we still do contact each other monthly and I remember when you called me on the 20th April and cried to me on the phone complaining and seeking for my help regarding your breakup with the girl that you love the most, Shidah. We even meet up and I was there to encourage you to move on and not to think of it too much. Didn't you even notice who was there helping you when you need help all this while? It was ME. Yes, it's SERI, Haizal. I gave you all my advice and all. After what happened last year, I still help you no matter what cause I want my loved ones to be happy. Yet again you pierced me deeply this time round. If all this while what you've been wanting is just a closer friendship but not relationship, you should've at least told me and not giving me fake hopes and asking if we could start all over again after the day we went out and visited your Dad and Co in the hospital. If only you can feel how hurtful it is to go through this thing. I was the one who is so stubborn and decided not to move on and decided to wait for your arrival when I know it won't happened at all. It's been nearly 9months and 10 days of me knowing you since the day you msg me. I hide my feelings for you to everyone even NESHQ and continue to be single without your presence in my life. And this is what I didn't even wish to happen, but it happen. I don't know what to do now. After thinking through and after all those advices NESHQ and my close ones gave me, I'm yet and still stubborn to move on after what happened and recently when I know that there's this guy who is not like me as in race came appearing since 19 June and being so ever nice to me and treating me well and that he even wins my heart but I still don't want to accept him. He's different than other guys I know but I can never love him. Maybe yes but it'll take ages for me to fall for him. I don't wish to be apart from you and I really love you alot though you've hurt me alot of times. The more I hate you the more I love you. I sound so desperate but no, I'm not. You just don't know how I feel. No one knows. Like what you always said to me, "Seri, kita merancangkan semua tapi Tuhan yang menentukannya."(We planned it but God decide it.) You created sucha big wound within a nick of time in my heart which will take ages for it to heal. The wound is so big that the pain can never be felt by others. I want the old us but the new you. I know it will never happen. :( This songs that I put marks the first song you sang to me that very night when we met each other way back then. I remembered clearly every of our memories and I don't know if you do. I miss you alot Rohaizal. I finally knew and realized that dreams are meant for sleeping and promises are meant to be broken and not dreams are meant to be chased and promises are meant to be done. Yes, I agree, not everyone is perfect but the one can be perfect if the trust is there. The longest will always hurt the hardest and I'm born to enjoy life and not be hurt by others. Well, enough is enough. Remember this?


Friday, 23rd November 2007, 02:32am

Unexpected yet planned,

Destiny brought us together,

Weird as it may,

You touched my heart and enter my soul,

When once you were a total stranger,

Who means nothing but just another living,

But now etched in my heart is your name,

And to love you is a must,

The first date, kept and treasured,

Sealed in my memories, perfect it is,

The beginning to our chapter,

So sweet and so fine,

The first kiss, I remember, sweetness lingers,

Romance in the air,

Perfect setting, perfect place,

The witness to our vows between you and me. :)


if only..

Very sorry for not been updating my blog and let it rot for a long time. The overdued pictures are not with me yet and I got no time to blog whenever I used the computer. So get ready and open your eyes widely cause there's alot to update now. :D



Tuesday, 17th June 2008.

The plan to CCK Swimming Pool with NEQ was cancelled due to some reasons which I don't think I should mention here. So in the end, I stayed home and lazed around and not forgetting finishing up my holiday homework.



Wednesday, 18th June 2008.

Woke up and got ready for Art and guess what, Ms Rokia open the door and then she left for meeting. And yeah, Krisstle and me went to shellac the back of our boards and then we head home. I went home to change and stuffs and mrted over to Ernie's crib to finish up my homework. Headed home at about 10pm.



Thursday, 19th June 2008.

Yes, very shocking, indeed! Telepathy I guess. Haizal, the dearest called me at 11am and told me about the bad news that his father was warded in the hospital since Sunday due to stroke. He asked me out to Town to accompany him shopping and then over to TTSH to visit his dad. Went to meet him up at 1230pm and B&S and then mrted down to Orchard and Topman, FCUK and Zara at Wisma and then over to Heeren for Flash & Splash. Mrted down to Novena and bought BK for lunch. Meet up with his family and then later at 6pm, dearest & Abg Yan sent me off to Novena station and then mrted down to meet up with the FNF Gang. Meet Ernie, Audi & Johan at Far East and then Krisstle, Linda, Reesha and Eugene came. Walk over to Pacific Plaza & Mango and then 190ed to Esplanade for the mini celebration of Reesha's Sweet 16 Birthday together with Jumalee and Fir along. I went home first and 960ed to Woodlands. So ya, Happy Sweet 16 Reesha! :D







Friday, 20th June 2008.

Woke up and mrted to Ang Mo Kio. Over to Mom's place for lunch and fetch brother and mrted back to Woodlands to sent him off to Cik Eton. Mrted down to Orchard and browse around to find brother's gift. Nothing caught my eyes but instead, I went to buy tops at Forever 21 and Mango for myself. Mango sales la oi! Mrted back to AMK and went to buy him a wallet and a top at OP. I bought 3 printed tops at OP for myself too.



Saturday, 21st June 2008.

Woke up pretty late and did nothing. Went to take the cake and then get ready at Mom's shop for bro's suprise birthday. So ya, the riders and us celebrate Amirul's 10th Birthday, cum Wan's 24th Birthday and Farewell To Hafiz too. The celebration was fun and we went home at 3am.







Hey little rascal, Happy 10th Birthday and study hard. Don't play too much and stop acting so soft whenever me and Kakak beat or bullied you. Much love! And please lose some weight, your elbow are becoming like mine! :D



Sunday, 22nd June 2008.

Time to finish up all my homeworks and will be heading back to Woodlands later at night. I rejected to meet up with Dearest today as I've got piles of homeworks left untouch. Tomorrow back to school people!


& NESHQ, remember the usual huh, tonight! :D










Dearest, I don't know what else to say. I'm hoping you change for a better and make this a better one this time round.

Say goodbye to June holidays. My holidays are occupied unlike others. Since the first week the O's candidates were having their extra class for a week and then followed by the second week and third week, the Art students have to come to school to complete their Art O Level work asap! Nevertheless, I still meet up my drugs and lovelies. :D



On Thursday the plan was changed for quite a few times and in the end, I meet Ernie up at Yishun interchange and then 854ed over to Hougang and took 112 to Kovan and meet Reesha. Krisstle then came and we walk over to the pool place. We played for an hour and the A came. Ernie and A went to meet us straight at Vivo and then the three of us NEL to Vivo. Dined at Banquet for our late dinner at 8pm. Went to the roof to slack and went separate ways at 1030. Saw my long lost friend. And yes, Mogan a new friend came. (I bet Nazzy will be ROFL!) Lazed around the whole Friday and then do a little bit of my holiday homeworks. At 5pm, went jogging around the neighbourhood till 6pm and then played badminton with Aunt and Uncle till 630pm and we went home.



Went down AMK to meet my 2 drugs, Power Nazzy and Iccy Ernie together with Reesha. Ate Banquet for lunch and then walk over to Popular to buy some writing materials. 265ed over to my crib and we studied all the way till 8pm. Head down to Haji Karim for dinner and went separate ways. I accompanied Ernie back home to take some stuffs and then 169ed to Woodlands and 913ed home.



On Sunday, the plan to meet with the Sentosa gang went not smoothly but overall I did enjoyed myself. Alot of waiting for people but in the end, we did have alot of fun. Pictures are in Faizal's dg. Will upload them once received. Meet the gang at City Hall then walk over to Marina Square to find a place to dine and in the end we ate ar Carls' Jr. Waited for another few to come and then walk over to Fountain Wealth at Suntec. Pe'ah and Sadat then came with the cake and then we sang song and watch the fountain till about 10pm. And when boredoms came, the few boys, Nizam, Rahadi, Pe'ah, Raqin, Misbah, Yan decided to play catching. After they sweat alot and realised that is already 1130pm, we bidded goodbye. I cab home to AMK.



And today the plan to go for a movie with Mogan was cancelled. Had a slight fever and thanks alot to Mom. I just don't understanding you. I am always the victim for you to vent your anger at. Shit la you fucking father. I don't want say more. And stupid monthly bleeding is preventing me to enjoy swimming tomorrow with my drugs. AHHHH! Shits la.

Dewi and family are away for three days and it's hell for me. Nenek will scream her lungs out as early as 10am to wake me up and force me to do the house chores but luckily on Monday, Mom, Sis and Little Bro sleepover and I left home early in the morning to school for Art. I've shellac my big board but just the front part and now we have to carve it during the weekends and then the next week we STILL have to go back to school for the printing trial. Tell me about it, am I having a real 4weeks or rather a perfect one month of holiday? No, hell no.



Oh well, while humans and creatures are sleeping during the night time, I'm enjoying every minute of my life talking to my precious fuckheads till dawn. Yes, we talk alot and I'm loving it. I forget my miserable past and they cheer me up and makes me feel occupied. Nevertheless they're still my best drugs to feed on daily. And yesterday, went to meet NEH for a last minute outing. Went over Lavender first without H to collect E's IC and my passport. Afterwhich we dine in at Raffles Banquet together with H and A along. Oh, keep wander who is A la. After we filled our stomach, walk ever to Bugis Street bought Shamila's present and A's stickers. Mrted down Orchard and walk around Wisma and head for late dinner at Mac's Shaw House. Bidded goodbye at 930pm and home sweet home.



Cheers to myself that I think I'm moving on slowly. I mean I msg him lesser now though I realized that we only meet once a month and talk on the phone only after we meet each other on that particular day itself. Missing him is a yes but at the least, I got a whole lot of his pictures in my phone to have a good gazed at it. Dearest, I know you won't be able to read this but I'm missing you alot and whatever it is, I'll be there if you need someone to talk and share your says with. I hope you're doing well now with your work and take good care of yourself and don't keep injuring yourself. Give your right thumb a good rest aye. The day you showed me I was shock to see it, seriously.



And besides that, I want to say it out loud that I hate to receive an unknown msgs or calls from anyone. Be it, you're a Malay, Chinese, Eurasian or probably a mixture of Indian. Like seriously I rather you msg me and tell me the truth as in where you get my number or who passed it to you and not making up stories like, "Oh, I banged into this guy and then we talk while walking after saying sorry and before we bidded goodbye he pass your number to me, so yeah that's how I get your number." Oh come on, be smarter abit can? I got brains though I intend to be slow at times but please, I'm a big expert at lying and I know all different kinds of lies la. So before you want to lie to me, I'm afraid I must say that you're not good at lieing and I rather you don't lie in the first place. Okay? It'll be great if whoever the person is happened to drop by my blog and read this. Wow, happy la tersangat. :D



I think I stop here, I blog too much now. Goodbye. :D

Art is a killer but thanks to Mr Nicholas for all the help. At last, I'm done with my final layout. I only left to shalec the file and start carving and printing and also the 8 boards have to be completed asap. School's gonna be reopen in 2 weeks time and I've done nothing much.



Piles of homeworks are still not completed and I've not been doing any revisions yet. To be true, I haven't been touching the books since school closed. Heh! I overslept and didn't went for POA last week and skipped art but instead, meet up with NEQ at Yishun to slack. Tuesday I spent the whole day at home and on Wednesday when I went for Art, I realized that I'm so left behind than others. Thursday had Physics in the morning and then went home to change and meet Rachel and head down to Bugis then Town for shopping instead of coming for Art. GSS is all over but nothing caught my eyes so far. Friday morning we're supposed to have Physics but Ms Chng couldn't make it so it was postponed. Went Art and I'm finally done.



Yesterday went home to meet Mom, Sis and BF, Lil Bro and then head down to Compass Point to get my new hp but somehow we couldn't. Cabed to AMK and then mrted to Bugis. Sis bought her stuffs there and we head town to get my stuffs but I'm still no satisfied with it. Before heading town, dine at Tong Seng for dinner. Mrted back to Woodlands with Sis BF then meet up Farhan & Co at Civics for awhile.



Woke up and do some house chores and bidded goodbye to Dewi, Aunt and Uncle as they'll be going for holiday at Tiuman till Thursday. The sweetest part is that Dewi shook hands with me and give me a hug. Aaw, very sweet of her. And for the next 4-5 days I have to take care of Granny and bear with every of her naggings. Goshh! NESHQ, Cliques; any plans do beep me! :D



Okay I am very very bored now. Will update if necessary.

1) At what age do you wish to marry?

Around 25-27 maybe?



2) How many children do you want?

Just 2, a boy and then a girl. Or a boy-girl twins would be lovely!



3) What I want the most now?

Loads of money for GSS!



4) What are your future plans?

Complete and get over my O's ASAP!



5) If you can have 1 more dream to come true, what will it be?

Turn back the time to 20 Oct 2007.



6) What are you afraid to lose now?

Family & NESHQ.



7) Which is worst, sarcasm or honestly?

Sarcasm of course.



8) From the first letter of your name, what would the letter best describe you?

Slow! Cause I'll intend to "huh" alot of times.



9) How strong(in your heart) can you be?

I'm not quite sure about this.



10) What are the requirements that you wish from other half?

To be the one and only that he would truly love.



11) Which type of person you hate most?

Those nowadays youngsters who step wannabe. Grow up pls.



12) Do you cherish every single of your friendship?

Yeap, definitely!



13) Do you believe in God?

Yes, of course. Allah Maha Esa. :D



14) What do you think is most important thing in your life?

Family & NESHQ.



15) Do you find it necessary for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?

Depends on the situation.



16) What do you want your friend to be like?

Be themselves and be who they are.



17) What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friends' eyes?

I leave this ans to them.



18) If you have a change, which part of your character would you like to change?

Hmm, can't think of any currently.



19) If you're feeling low one day, who will you go to?

Sister, NESHQ and close cliques.



20) If there was one thing that you would like to say to a certain someone, what would it be?

?? Blank.




Okay, Feifei, I'm done with the survey. I won't sabo people to do. Whoever feels like doing it, by all means.

Tuesday 27th May 2008.

Back to school for revision. From 0830-1000 had Biology and then 1000-1030 break. 1030-1200 was Social Studies and then after an hour had Art till about 4pm. Meet him up at Civic library after he finish work and then he accompany me by using his laptop while i do my art. At about 9pm, we left the library and 913ed over to old woodlands as he wanted to sell off his old hp. After selling off his hp, we 901ed back to Causeway Point and intended to eat BK's but cancelled and we went home instead.



Wednesday 28th May 2008.

Had Geography from 0830-1000 and went for break. 1030-1200 had English and we did Oral Picture. Afterwhich was Art and I reach home earlier. Slept throughout the whole night that I didn't realize he msg me.



Thursday 29th May 2008.

Maths was first from 0830-1000 but at 0900, Mr Singh took over and it was hilarious when he thought us angle of elevation and depression. After break was English and then at 1300 was Art. Ended early and went home to change and then headed down to library to finish off my art work.



Friday 30th May 2008.

0830-1000 was Maths and then at 1030-1200 was Physics but we slack. End up, Ms Chng released us early and then I skipped Art. Went Outback to collect my pay and later in the evening, meet up with Ernie and Reesha for Friday Night Fever. I know, just the three of us is like not happening but we had fun. Went over Marina's Square and dine at BK. Walk and shop around and 12ed to Downtown. Mrted back at about 11plus.



Saturday 31st May 2008.

Meet Eyla, Fyda and Feifei at about 11plus at Dhoby and NEL to Harbourfront. Bused to Beach Station and then took tram over to Pahlawan Beach and I saw Aaron. Got changed and then we settle down somewhere near the toilet to makan first. After makan, we cross the bridge and actually intended to tanned there but the place was dirty. Cross back again and quickly lay our mats nearby the bridge. Tanned for an hour and then played the water. Shift place again and then took pictures like alot can. Made new friends (Acap, Fadly, Miyak, Sadan, Faiz, Faizal, Rahadi, Yan, Peah, Raqin, Mikbar, Fuad, Tinesh) there and after changing, we went Clarke Quay with them. Slack and chill till about 11plus and I meet Amirul & Co at Memorial. Took last train home with them and I enjoy my day alot!













Sunday 01st June 2008.

Working at 5pm shift.