This is a very random post. I don't know why but I just feel that I wanna pour it all out here. My family life is very unstable now. Father rarely went home and gave Mother money. Like, what the hell. How am I gonna get my pocket money to school and little brother too. Sis is now waiting for her results, so she's either at home sleeping and doing house chores or going out with Abg Noi. Or rather waste money on unnecessary stuffs. She's working but it's part time. But I see no difference if she's working or doesn't. Why? Cause I barely even see her money whenever her pay comes.



Oh well, reminiscene back during late November and December, Father created alot of problems that made Mother think too much. I pity her and I love her. I may be rude to her whenever we talk but deep down, I love her alot. Father? I rather lose a Father than a Mother. But strangely, I don't know why I was against their break up last year when Mother intended to break up with Father due to some circumstances. My feelings got all mixed. I was so angry, sad, depressed and upset in both parties. I don't know who to blame. And I realised I was so stupid behaving that way at that point of time. Lying to her, went home in the morning, drink and got drunk with my work mates, club till 6am at 2 clubs in one day. I really regret doing all those stuffs.



I pity Mother now. She's undergoing alot of stress now. Father is behaving like a big time fucker. I wish I could ask someone to bang him in the expressway and make sure he's dead. I'm so so happy man if he dies. Even Mother says that too that day. Life will be easy for the four of us, or maybe three, without Amirul. My brother was totally unplanned child. I think without him, Mother will be happy to find better jobs and earn more for money for us and not to worry about us at home or not.



For now, I don't want to know how Mother and Father is doing. What I care and concerns most is my studies and career. I wanna be a successful young teen who wants to pursue her dreams. I make sure this day happenned. I can't wait for after O's. I want to continue my studies in either Poly or JC and then find a job or if there's chance for me to still continue studying, then I will. Insyallah.



Exams are just around the corner and I better do well for Mid Year. I don't want to see bad grades on my progress cards and report book. I wanna do well for O's. I target at least 15points or below. And I make sure I will achieved it. English is the weakest subject for me and I don't know why. I have to start reading books and practice more comprehension. Art is a killer. I want to end it as fast as possible. Science is another one of my weak subject. I better start revising them now before it's too late. The others are still quite manageable for me. I want to prove everyone that I can do it. Dear God, give me the strength will you?



And lastly I love Mom and NESHQ very much. :D

Went over to Granny's house at 6pm. Abg Noi fetch us and lorry-ed to Woodlands. Fetch Cik Eton and Liyana and then to Granny's house. Abg Noi went of to work at 7pm. Ordered Pizza and ate cakes and ice creams and then head home at 10pm. A mini celebration and I bullied Granny. I paint chocolate on her face and then all joined in. Fun fun. Gave her $20 and then cabbed home. Tomorrow back to school and it's Monday. Fucking long day and Geography Test tomorrow. Goodnight loves! :D

Friday was fun. Had PE and we only ran 3 rounds but yes, we cheat rounds as a class. 2 rounds and then gather ourselves in one big circle outside the PE Room and discuss about the class tshirt that was supposingly to be made since last year by someone but it did not succeed. So I took the initiative to ask around. And yes, it was all done. Black FBT jersey with white stripes at the shoulder pad with our names and register number written at the back of it. After PE, Lab 4 for English and we did brochure regarding CCA. POA next and continue practicing Depreciation with more information using Reducing Balance Method. Recess and then Maths. I scored 28/50 for the test and it's 56%. It's my luck though the questions are all pass years and basically Sec 3's work which I've already forgotten. Headed home straight after school and got ready for NESHQ's outing, celebrating Nazrina's 16th birthday.



Met up at AMK last cabin at 4pm and trained down to Dhoby and then NEL to Harbourfront. Dine at The Chicken Rice Shop and then proceed walking around Vivo. Took crazy and lame pictures at Toys'R'Us. Went over to slack at SkyPark and then me & Irah went down to get the piece of cake from The Secret Recipe and surprised her. Sang song and took pictures and at about 8pm, we proceed to Clarke Quay to slack by the bay as Vivo was bored. Hello-ed Midget, Psycho, Hanah, Faiz, Along & gf and Ijad. Slack and talk about almost everything and made a nuisance of ourselves. Naz & Ginn went home first at about 10plus while the other 3 took the last train home.




Nazrina, we hope you enjoyed the mini celebration and the fun we had prepared for you on Friday. And how's Strawberry Shortcake? Is she sleeping together with you? Hehe! Best wishes and we love you like alot alot! Happy Sweet Sixteen Sweetheart! :D



Saturday


Was on the phone with Dante till about 4am and I dozed off, as I was too sleepy. Overslept and woke up at 12pm. Clean the house and then got ready. Cabbed down Woodlands and sent brother to Granny's place and then mrted to work. Saw Hykel and hello-ed him. Had classroom and 3pm and Beverages Test later then. I flunk it. My service charge will be hold if I didn't pass the retest that will be given in a week's time. Punched out quite late just now and then mrt-ed home. Saw Irah and Nana at Marina Bay. Boarded the same train together and saw Jambron. Home Sweet Home and was hungry. Haha, order Macdonalds for Mum and Sis since bro was not home. Later in the evening, will be heading over Granny's place to celebrate her birthday. Will update more pictures in the next post. I owe you the Old Folks' pictures. For now, this are the Friday pictures taken.

Taken at Old Folks at Toa Payoh. :D



Wednesday had nothing special happening in school just that MT lesson, I enjoy making funny faces at Ikhsan and disturbing Mr Hasreen. And Assembly programme today was fun. We had a group of 5 girls performing Acapella Musical Item. Cool shit man. & after school, went home and changed and then went over to 446's Macdonald to mug with Irah till 11pm.



The plan today was to suppose to head over to Nenek house at Woodlands as it was her birthday just now (27th March) but it was postponed to this coming Sunday. My uncles and aunts will be there and yeah, fun fun. It's already 2.20am and I'm still not asleep as I had my sleep from 7pm just now till 11 plus?



I was blogghopping, msning, friendstering and myspacing and I suddenly click and read back all my archives. They're so lame can. Those times in Secondary 1s till now. Ohmy, ignore my archives. Except from I don't know which month onwards. Haha! And the kental pictures since 2006 till now. See and compare the differences la eh.



Okay, tomorrow is sure gonna be a fun day. Nazrina's birthday is like less than few hours more. Yeahh! &&& Art O's is a killer!

Yesterday was a terribly long day of school for me but for the first time I didn't sleep during any lessons & gees, that's an achievement for me, I guess. HEH! Nothing special to talk or touch about. Oh ya, Geography test went smoothly for me, like finally. (Damn!) Neutron and Nazzy and Shawn was absent and the atmosphere is like so damn quiet. Few more tests for the other subjects this week. I seriously need a long break to complete my art work. It's driving me crazy. I'm like way back behind from art and I think others too. Haha! *evil laughs*



& today we went to Old Folks Home at Toa Payoh and I think this time was kinda unplaned but we sure do have alot of fun entertaining them and we hope they enjoy. It's very sad to see them saying "Please come again here often". I feel like crying can, it touches my heart, especially when Mdm Tay said that to me before I left. And if only Ms Tay could tag us along just now. Ohmy it's over. Some other time I guess. Photos are taken, will upload them pretty soon.












THINK AHEAD, SERI! COME ON! :D

Nothing much happen this past few days. I was down with terrible stomach flu this past few days and it sucks. I wasn't enjoying myself during Sports Heats. I was numb. And that is not me, I'm loud. Very loud kind of person when comes to this kind of situation. And thanks to Safari that I had to rush to workplace on Friday when supposingly I'm going out with the Friday Fever people for pool at Kovan. Damn him. And Saturday night was hell for me cause both me & Hardeep was the FOH. As usual, we fought, MAJOR one. Safari, Rita and myself was shouting at her from bar to the Table 30s.



I slept at 7am in the morning just now and awake only ay 3pm in the afternoon just now. Heh, Dante is superbly friendly and funny person to chat with. Haha! Thanks for the bedtime song, pal. (: Ahginn came over later in the evening and yeahh. Studied Geography and Physics Test and then now I'm hook here.





4hours more to School. :D

See that pretty girl there? I know you guys confirm ask, "She Malay? or Chinese? Mix eh?" Alot of my friends will sure to ask this question whenever they see her pictures in my phone. See Feifei, you so famous ah. This cina girl I know few years back when I was just a bloghopper. I came across her blog and read every of her post eversince that day and decided to tag her. We link each other and then get to know each other through cyber, msn, myspace and stuffs. Exchanges numbers and then meet up end of 2006 for tanning. Wah, I still can remember eh? It's a small world that I know a few of her friends from her school like Syed and such. Blahblah. Alot of things to talk about her, I think 1 post won't be enough you see. But the most memorable thing happen was when she accompanied me and family to Geylang to get our last year raya clothings and then went to my house to hang the curtain's up. Haha, very sweet of her. And this minah here, I ask her for her solo pictures and she ask me, "you nak sexy ones ke cool ones? hahaha." Fun and loving person to be with. Know here, she's fun to be with. Eh Ling, let's go out end of this month okay, set?

Monday, 17th March 2008.


I was late for the first time in the Term 2. Haha, had reading period for 30 minutes and then I heard Eugene burst out. Bluetooth-ing pictures at the parade ground with him but sadly, no connection when I keep pressing the 'Refresh' button. Mdm Ratnam caught my hair reddish when I swear that I never dye my hair eversince January when the whole bunch of us dye our hair together using Miss Li Ting Ru's hairdye. Hello, the sunlight is reflecting on our direction directly man. Even Jay was caught too when Mr Tan ask why, the whole lot laugh because her hair was jet black.


Mr Tan: Yes, what's wrong with you?

Jay: Mdm Ratnam say my hair got color.

Mr Tan: Color? I see all black. Whose the teacher again?

Jay: Mdm Ratnam.

Mr Tan: (smiling) You may go now.

Jay: (walks off)

Mr Tan: Haiyo. (nod head)


Went back to class then had English followed by Social Studies and then recess. After recess was Geography and I was so into talking with Rachel about our class corridor. I didn't know she was so scared that she beat me later when I told her something. HAHA! After Geography was POA and then Physics. After Physics was MT and it was relief by Cikgu Shamimi. No work was given and we did our own stuffs. After school, went for my Emcees Audition at the hall for only like 10 minutes and then went back home straight as I was too tired.



Tuesday, 18th March 2008.


I didn't went to school as I was having a terrible stomachache and nearly vomitted in the morning. Sleep the whole day and later around 5plus, accompany Mom to fetch Amirul form religious class and then had dinner at Yunos Family Corner. Ordered Satay when later Sis & Abg Noi arrived. And I saw Hafiz, Haizal's friend, there too. Also Mr Hasreen and family. Bused home and watch cd(s) that Abg Noi brought.



Wednesday, 19th March 2008.


Went to school as usual and then had Geography the first period. Did some more of the worksheet on Development & Strategies. After Geography was MT and at the end of the lesson, Mr Hasreen called me up. Gah! After MT went to have early reces with the lower sec and then had Art lesson. After Art was Maths and Probability is getting tough man! After Maths was Accounts and I manage to finish up her work. HAHA! We had no assembly so we stayed in class for FT period. After school, it was raining cats & dogs so stay back till 5pm and completed all my homework. On the way back home, my stomachache came and I slept all the way when I reach home.



Friday Fever Pictures.

Holidays are coming to an end soon. I think I did much revision for Maths & Biology only. I spent my holidays finishing up the holidays assignment and also went to and fro to the library doing my art research. I thought Art is the easy subject to score but oh no, I'm wrong. I have not start a single thing for Art and damn, June Holidays will be printing our layouts already. Time past so fast and Mid Year Exams are just in few weeks time. Then Prelims, then O's. I'm sure to flunk if I don't start study now.



On Thursday, went back to school for Physics Class and we finish 3 chapters for the past two days remedial lessons. I don't quite understand but I think Ms Chng shall help me out with the chapters that I'm not good in. I want at least a B3 for all my subjects for O's man. Damn! After Physics, went for the Art Course and I swear it's sucha waste of my bloody time. We did arcylic paint on first hand observation and my final product was a shit! We were suppose to attend the next lesson which is today for watercolor but I didn't went to.



I went back to my aunt house for a sleepover and then went back home yesterday noon. Meet up with the Friday Fever People, Eugene, Reesha, Kriss & Ernie. We head down to Marina Square to have our early dinner at the Food Lot and then went to play pool for 2 hours. It was fun! The funny part was when Kriss was so confident to hit her ball when she actually using a green ball to hit it. We were laughing our ass out man! Me & Eugene spotted how confidently she hold the stick and aiming the green ball. After 2 hours of pooling, we then walk over to Boat Quay to slack. Took pictures and then play card games. Saw Khai & Psycho & Midget, hello-ed them and then slack till about 11plus. Took the last train and then accompany Nini to Yishun then to Ang Mo Kio back.



I'm done with all my homework, except art & POA. She promise to give the answer sheet but she didn't. Damn! And now I'm busy doing my art research for the O levels!



;i give up waiting. even if you were to come looking for me, i still will entertain you but your missing keeps me wander how you're doing. it's better of this way.




memang sukar untukku melepaskanmu, namun ku tetap juga demi melupakan dirimu

Sunday 090308.


BBQ Pictures.

It's gonna be a long post today. I got lots to update here and I don't know where to start first. I waste 3 hours edit the skin and bahh.

Wednesday; 5th March.

I was late to school and came during MT lesson. Mr Hasreen was away for NS, hah probably catching Mas Selamat I guess. Next was Art and the students involved for the programme was excused. After recess was Maths and we continue with Frequency & Density. Last lesson was POA and I fought with Ms Kwok and then proceed for the assembly's programme. It went smoothly, thank god!
After school, stayed back for Badminton Interhouse and we lose. Later at around 7plus, went to meet Haizal.


Thursday; 6th March.

Maths was first and finish up the chapter and proceed to Probability. MT was next and we slack. Biology was basically more on revising the chapters we covered for Term 1 and also topics to study for Mid Year Examinations. After recess was English and we went to computer lab to type out our Speech. 1 period of Art was a waste of time as school will be release at 1.10 due to Sports Heat.
After school, NESHQ, Kriss, Reesha & Niyoh went to eat at Hougang Mall's Long John Silver. Bused down to Hougang Stadium for Sports Heat. NESHQ cheered and stuffs. Head home straight after Heats.


Friday; 7th March.

PE was just 2 rounds of running around the school and then English was next. POA was going through some of the paper and homeworks and then recess. After recess we spent few minutes cleaning the classroom and then giving out of progress cards. I failed 3 subjects, English, Humans & Science. Gosh! I need to buck up.
Later in the evening, went over to Shawn's house for BBQ. Some of the 4E3 students gather and we had a great fun. All I can say the pit was an awesome one. Will upload the pics once received.


Saturday; 8th March.

Was late for Maths Remedial. But at least I manage to catch the rest up. Later at 10plus, we had free breakfast from Ms Tay, Nasi Lemak. Thank you! Class ends at 12, went to slack with Kriss, Reesha, Ernie and Nazrina till about 2 plus and I head off for work till 11.


Sunday; 9th March.

Woke up, clean my wardrobe and then went to meet Reesha and Kriss for group study at National Library. Studied till 9pm and then went to slack at Esplanade till 11plus and mrted home.


Monday; 10 March.

Had Physics Remedial from 8 to 12 and then later at 3pm, went swimming with NESQ. Watched Step Up 2 at AMK Hub and it was awesome!


Tuesday; 11 March.

STUDY!

School's fine, I got a lot of test coming up and guess what March Holiday is coming! Yabedabedoo. But sighs, we O's student have to buck up and start revising. Mid Year Examinations are just around the corner. In how many months time, I'm gonna sit for O's. God, I can't believe it. Oh well, all I have to do now is to start revising my weak subjects from now.

I got my pay last Saturday and went out with Ahginn dearest on Sunday to shop. I did alot of shopping and then later chill at Starbucks's Wisma till about 9pm and meet Hasrul later on. We went to catch a movie at Cathay, The Eye. I swear it's damn boring. I mean the story line is exactly like The Eye in Thailand just that they did a little bit of changes here and there. The funny part was when both of bang our heads when saw the ghost appearing. HAHA! Feifei, I got to update you man! & yesterday, NESHQ went to have early dinner at NEBO and it was great.

This week, will be busy with Sports Heats, Assembly programme and alot alot more.
So bye for now, am gonna start mugging. & anyway, here are some random pictures.