update-d

WEDNESDAY.
no school for SGS-IAN.
due to the Polling Day.

THURSDAY.
school was okay.
had PE today.
same teacher.MR CHO.
do almost all the 5 statistics stations for NAPFA.
recess was awesome. STAR made all of us laugh like hell, especially me. =D
had Netball Training after school.
NINI never came.
so i guesss trng without her.
get well soon DARLINK.
B Girls had Floorball Match against a few school.
blahx.
after trng met An[SGS] only.
then headed home.
LETHARGIC.

FRIDAY.
NINI never come again. CAN YOU PLEASE GET WELL SOON?!
MT was so 'kecohrable'. weehu. MR HASREEN do look like MAWI. haha
cute de mah. haha. NCC day today.
morning speech by BELOVED SINGH was AWESOME LONG. haah.
BORING.
after school sat in the canteen had lunch and headed to 13+.
kipas block. me, ika and azhar.
then An[sgs] came.
suddenly out of nowhere,ABG SYED came.
chit-chatted.
he was suppose to leave at 4+ for his trng but then tk jadi. lepak with us instead.
then An[peicai] came,together with his bike.
and An[sgs] said that Man was otw there. i was like. WADEVER.
when he came, he treat me like as if im not there.
bahs. wadever lah.
he went to shop with An[peicai]
then Syed tease him," Man, sini lah dudok sblh aku. Aku nk bbl2 ngn ko."
Dudok sblh him cos my seat was empty sblh. hah.
end up he did sit there.
i act as per normal.
then suddenly, i wanted to put my leg down cos I was sitting cross-legged.
then i accidentally step his feet.
and i said,"sory,sorry. tak sgaje."-i smiled.
he was like,"nemind."-and smiled back.
happy a little bit at least he didnt ignore me.
hm. i acted as per normal. to be friends is better then be enemy right?
friends dont bear grudges.
man then decide to go home for a while.
and so ika.
the rest of us waited for an[sgs] to sent ika home.
then we headed to Soccer Court.
Victoria and Ger came.
chit chatted with them and headed home at 7pm.
while waiting for bus, saw Hilmy.
chit chat for a while and headed home strght.

TOMORROW.
Netball Trng: 0830am-1030am.
Gig:0700pm-0730pm.
Update you all tmrw aite?
nights.

PS: I HATE THAT GUY IN MY SCHOOL!
WHY MUST HE PURPOSELY BOUGHT THE SAME HP AS ME.
ARGH!
STAR, YOU KNOW WHO HUH?
ARGH.

thanX.

today school was fun.
had check-up.
during mt was fun.
laugh like hell.
pixel taken while waiting for the checkup.

me and siti shoes. hah.

snapshot[1]

snapshot[2]

me and my bestie =))
after school SUCKS!
me and ika went to 139.
meet An and then went to 140 meet the other An.
4 of us then.
went 147 had a drink.
then went to Court.
they played soocer while me and ika sat chit chat.
then headed to 121.
cos the weather was hot.
then suddenly, An[peicai] jump up and down.
SUDDENLY. i was like? wth?
he did tt twice.
then i realise something.
i saw LUQMAN! just across the place where we seat.
i was like. haish.
then i FORCE myself not to cry.
which i did.
but then, I suddenly btoke down when i SAW HIM WALKING WITH A SSS GIRL.
i cried like hell.
TERRIBLE.
few minutes, i was okeyh.
then i sat in a normal manner BUT!!!
when i turn to my right, I SAW HIM WITH A GIRL SITTING.
I DIDNT REALISE.
ALL THIS WHILE HE WAS SITTING THERE WHEN I WAS CRYING LIKE HELL.
I WAS COVERING MY FACE AND LOOKING DOWN.
I DIDNT REALISE AT ALL!!!
AND GUESS WHAT?
THE GIRL WAS FATIN.
AN[PEICAI] SO-CALLED EX.
THEN I WAS LIKE?!
OMG! YOU BITCH IS GETTING ON MY NERVES.


GUESS WHAT I DO?
I TOOK MY HP, DELETE ALL HIS MSGS AND ALL THE CNTCTS RELATED TO HIM.
-HIS HSE, HIS MOM, HIS OWN NO.
IKA ASK ME,"SERI ASL KAU DELETE NO DIER?"
THEN I SAID,"BUAT PER NK SIMPAN NO NI LAGI? DIER NGN AKU DAH TKDER KENE MENGENER PE?! DELETE SUAK."
I THREW MY HANDPHONE TO THE GROUND AS HARD AND AS FAR AS POSSIBLE.
FATIN WAS LIKE,"OMG!"
AND I WAS LIKE,"JGN NK ACT SHOCK LAH SIAL. BACKSTAB KWN SENDIRI. POPMPAN SIAL. "
BOTH AN, IKA AND RAHIMI SAID,"EH, SERI, ASL KAU CMPAK HP KAU? TK SYG KASI LAH AKU."
WE WERE LIKE FRENS AT PHONE BEFORE ME AND LUQMAN WERE TOGETHER.
WE OFTEN CONFERENCE AND CHIT CHAT FOR WHILE. NOT THAT CLOSE BUT HE KNOWS WHATS GOING ON BETWEEN THE TWO OF US. AND NOW, SEE WHAT SHE HAS DONE?
YOU'RE A BITCH. BASTERD!
TOTALLY FUCKED UP.
ITS ACTUALLY A VERY LONG STORY HAPPENED JUST NOW.
HEADED HOME AROUND 6+.




IM IN NO MOOD AT ALL.
NO SCHOOL FOR ALL SGS-ian TMRW.
MAYBE THOUGHT OF GOING SOMEWHERE QUIET WITH NO ONE.
EASE MY MIND.

weehu.

okeyhs peeps.
today was FUN.
i mean okeyh lah.
met my classmates. wee!!
then in the morning, hah, standard.
BABOO and CHEEBYE gave a VERY SHORT SPEECH INDEED.
BABOO talk was OKAY.
CHEEBYE talk, err.
every word there will be like 3-5 seconds of interval.
serious, nort kidding. =D
then there were new trainiee tchers.
First period was Form Tcher.
we finally had a co-from tcher. also our Science teacher.
new subjects.
IT and DnT.
One thing I LIKE is that, NEW TEACHER for SCIENCE.
finally!
one thing i HATE is that, NEW TEACHER for ART.
gosh, from my favourite teacher to my hatest teacher.
YVONNE!!! i HATE her to the core.
infact the whole class i guess.
During her lesson, she ask,
"Who do you think Miss Chee is to you?"
Ginnie said,"My grandma."
i was like hahaha.
lol.

the boring part was after school.
didnt slack or even talk with the seniors.
went out of school straight away.
Star and Ernie wanted to go home.
So left me and ginnie.
planned to do 'stupid stuff'.
but then, tk jadi.
meet mom instead after she sent lil bro go madrsh.
then paid all those house thingy.
blah, blah.
lastly,went to buy lil bro assement bk and DEAR MOM took I dont know how long to choose.
can even talk on the phone. but nemind, IM VERY PATIENT.

nice? this is called, BORING. and decided to take pixel with her.
like mother,like daughter.

CHECKLIST.

OKEYHS.TOMMOROW SCHOOL RE-OPENED.
HOMEWORKS. ERM, DONE. SOME 3/4 DON, 1/4 HALF COMPLETE.
OKEYHS. BETTER THEN NEVER DO AT ALL. HAHA.
KE UP GOT BATH AND MEET Q. HAIRCUT!! HAHA.
ME ALSO. NICE.
THEN GOT CHANGED AND WENT CENTRAL WITH SIS.
BOUGHT HER NEW SCHOOL SHOE.
FUCK! SHE GOT THE CONVERSE ONE WHICH I WANTED. NEMIND.
THEN WENT TO TOWN, TOOK 162.
FIRST STOP, FAR EAST. THEN WENT TO CATHAY.
ATE LONG JOHN AND THIS IRRITATING SISTER OF MINE IS DAMN NOSY.
CANT STOP SHAKING HER HEAD AND SINGING. MAKING A LOT OF NOISE.
OOPS, YARHOR, MINA REGGAE.
THEN WENT TO HEEREN.
BOUGHT SOME HAIR CLIPS AND BANDS. WEEHU.
THEN TOOK TRAIN AND HEADED TO BUGIS STREET.
BOUGHT ANOTHER SLING BAG. A BLACK ONE.
SIS BOUGHT A ZINC BRAZIL TOTE BAG.
REACH HOME,PIXEL WITH SIS. HAHA.



thankyoo.
see yar tmrw.
sayonara.

BUSY. SAD.

TODAY.
woke up early.
was awake by his msg.
i was shock.
didnt aspect him to reply.
yesterday night, i couldnt sleep.
so i decided to msg Luqman.
i said,
"Hey,are you asleep? Care for a chat? I mean thru msg.Im bored.I dont wanna talk about our probs. Just a normal chat. Hmm. If you tk sudi, then tkpe. Hais.."
he replied at 7.23am.
"Sori if ive beebn avoiding u ol this while. my reason is easy. since farhan dah dpt ika alek,i mcm tanak rapat sgt ngn dorng cos it reminds me of mie past. so thats it. i guess we just have to go on our separate ways and start anew. so take caiire."
i cried a million years.
i replied,
"But i cant bear to be apart from you. Lately ive not been with them cos it makes me remind of the memories i had with you. U, pls.. I will do anything for the sake of you.. Please.. I really cant bear to be apart with you. There's still along way for us to go. I don't want to end it here.. =("
i waited for like 2 hours, yet he didnt reply. i sent one more text then.
"U, are you there? Are you trying to say that you're gonna end our relationship now? Just like that? U sanggop tglkn i menderita sesorgn? I maseh sygkn u. My love towards you is still strong and I dont wish to be without you. Please u.. ="""( "
finally he replied,
"U noe tat i realli regret 2 reply ur nsg...Now i tel u 4 e last tyme..i wanna go on my separate ways...u cn find a bter person den mie.I dUn wAnA hear u say 'I LOVE U','MIZ U' anymore! "
i was damn fucking shock and cried after reading his msg.
and i reply for the last time.
" =""""(( I have nothing to sat anymore. Thanks for everything.. Thanks for HURTING my feelings.. U toyed my heart and feelings.. Take Care and Goodbye.. =( "
HE SUCH A JERK. I SHOULDNT HAVE FALL IN LOVE IN THE FIRST PLACE. JUST WHAT WAS HIS INTENTION OF DOING THIS? HE JUST CANT SEEMS TO FORGET HIS 'PRECIOUS EX'. I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND WHY. MUST BE A REASON BEHIND IT I GUESS.
THATS IT. I HAD ENOUGH.

I LAYED ON THE BED CRYING HELPLESSLY AND ENDLESSLY THINKING OF YOU.
NOW, IT'S OVER. WE ARE DONE. YOU'RE JUST A PIECE OF DIRT.

in the evening at around 6.30, meet Q and do homework under her blok there till 8.30.
weehu. finally some done.
WAY TO GO:-
*GEOGRAPHY[ANY 5 CHAPS]MINDMAP.
*SCIENCE REVISION[RE-TEST].

PLANS FOR TOMORROW.
*HAIRCUT WITH Q.
*COLORED MY HAIR BLACK BACK.
*IRON UNIFORM.
*PACK BAG.
*XCALLING2 PEEPS.
*FINISH UP ALL UNDONE HOMEWORKS.

bye.

SEE YOU BELOVED CLASSMATES ON MONDAY.
thankyoo.

DOLLY AND NINI'S DAY OUT!

YESTERDAY.
had Netball Training.
went home after eating with Ika.
with the accompany of both An[s].
meet Q then browse the shops at Central.
after that went to Courts for awhile.
the headed to the library.
AT HOME.
ika miss call. i call her back then.
talk about Luqman.
haish, remind me of him again.
he cut his hair. look so cuter and neater.
aaw, so missing him badly.
both me and ika dreamt about him.
it was so sweet. hope it will be a miracle.
i wish upon the star.

TODAY.
meet NINI!!!!!
weehu!!
so mising her seh.
anw, SORRY I WAS LATE. I MEAN VERY LATE KAN? sorry NINI!!!
nemind, next time i pinch your elbow k? hahas! beware!
headed to HEEREN.
walk around to look for her perfume.
cant find, so end up jalan2 lorhs.
then went to Taka. i wanted to buy a skirt from FUTURE STATE.
but THEN..
out of stock! haiyo!
then went to LUCKY PLAZA.
eat and finally, found her perfume.
went to FAR EAST then. jalan2 and saw nicce tops and bottoms.
AFFORDABLE PRICES. weehu.
then planned to go Bugis Street.
headed there.
went in and bought NINI'S JEANS. NICE. 20 bucks only. CHEAP.
then went look around and bought myself a FADED BLUE SKIRT.
discount and bargain get 12 bucks.
then vought ourselves each a TEE.
MINE was a BLACK one.
NINI was a BROWN one.
YEEPEE.
I SO FALL IN LOVE WITH THE TOPS AND BOTTOMS AT THERE.
must save money and buy some more. weehu.
PIXEL for today.

snapshot she took in Lucky plaza lift. =D



our day out.

thankyoo.

Happy Birthday Lil Bro!!

.

Name: Muhammad Amirul.
Age: 8 years old.
School: Jing Shan Primary.
DOB:21st June 1998.

HAVE A WONDERFUL TIME WATCHING GARFIELD 2 WITH MAMA AND AYAH OKIES?
SLEEP TIGHT WITH YOUR NEW BANTAL BUSOK.
AND HAVE FUN WATCHING YOU NEW "MR BEAN CD" BOUGHT BY ME OKIES?
HAHA. LAME.
NENEK WILL BE TREATING US PIZZA LATER IN THE EVENING.
BYES.

IT'S OVER.

LOVE?
Anyone can tell me whats 'love'?
hah. bullshit.

tomyMRHIM:
thanks for hurting my feelings.
iLOVEit. hah. all boys are the same.
when they get a new one, the old one, they dumped.
bullshit. enjoy your life aite? i have no more words
to say to you. all the best with your future beloved.
craps. my fairytale has ended. 060606 has officially ended.
no more strings tied. attachable.


Adakah diriku kau tak perlu lagi?
Adakah cintaku kau tak perlu lagi?
Adakah dirimu yang berubah hati terhadap diriku?
Adakah insan lain yang bertahta di hatimu?
Hinggakan dirmu berubah cintaku.
Adakah janjimu yang kau beri dulu, terhadap diriku.
Kau pernah berkata cintamu adalah selama-lamanya.
Bulan menjadi saksi, pada malam itu.
Kau kata... Kau cinta padaku.

*SERI.

POSTPONED.

YESTERDAY.

It was not yesterday I mean. But its over 12 midnight so its considered as yesterday. But for me, its bout two hours ago. Haha.
Woke up at 11am and got ready. Went to watch gig with Azhar. Performed by Farhan[SgS] and his band members. Met Farhan under his block and then went to Azhar's block. Waited for Azhar and 147-ed to dont know which stop. Alight and boarded 133. Stopped at Jln Pisang there. Near Arab St. Met his friends adn they were like. Hmm, my first impression was like,"WOW! They are really and totally into Hardcore Type." But then found out that they were friendly. Took Bus No.2 to the studio. The place was like Industrial Park like that. Very the quiet. Then went to Level 6 as that was the place to perform. But the gate of the entrance was locked. Went back to the groundfloor and slack while waiting for the gate to opened. AS we were waiting, saw a few other band that were performing. Khai[Farhan's friend], basters. He called all the performers to gather around our area. Almost about 3 to 4 groups. Hahas. At first, I was quiet cos I dont really know them that well. Soon, I get clicked with them. They were Khai,Hakim,Fadzli,Along,Taufik,Md.Nor. In the end, one of the people invovled in the organising the gig went to us and said that it was postponed. They were like,"BUTO ARGH!!". Then planned to eat at Lucky Plaza and then slack at Far East and around 7+pm headed to esplanade. Lotsa of fun with them. I was like the only one girl and was with the other 8 or 9 jokers. At least, I get a time to release all my problems. I mean, I really enjoyed myself and that outing really make my day smile and laugh. Forget all the sadness. Haish. Chilled with them at Esplanade till 1030pm. I really enjoyed my day.


A DAY HAS PASSED,
AND I REALISED I'VE BEEN MISSING YOU.
MISS YOUR SMILE,
MISS YOUR KISSES,
MISS YOUR HUGS,
MISS YOUR VOICE.
WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?
WHY DIDNT YOU BOTHER TO REPLY TO ALL MY MSGS AND CALLS?
HAIS,I'LL BE WAITING PATIENTLY FOR YOUR PRESENCE.

___WONDERof060606___

TEARS ROLL DOWN.

OKEYHS READERS.
TODAY.
WOKE UP, MY UNCLE CAME.
FIRST THING I DO: CHECK MY HP TO SEE WHETHER LUQMAN REPLY TO MY MSG.
NO, THERE ISNT ANY. EXCEPT, A MSG FROM IKA.
SHE ASK ME TO ACCOMPANY HER GO HOUGANG MALL, BUY HER STUFFS.
DO HOUSE CHORES THEN WATCH TV.
THEN AROUND 3+PM, GOT READY AND WENT TO MEET IKA AND FARHAN AT BLOK KIPAS,
NEAR THE BBALL COURT. CANCEL PLAN OF GOING HOUGANG MALL.
THEN HEADED TO 147 COFFEESHOP, WHILE EATING, HILMY CALLED.
ASK ME WHERE THEN SAW HIM FROM FAR PLAYING SOCCER AT COURT.
THEN CLOCK SHOWS 6PM SHARP.
IKA NEED GO HOME.
THEN FARHAN AND ME ACCOMPANY HER TAKE CAB HOME, LATE ALREADY.
LEFT ME AND AN.
AN WANTED TO MEET LUQMAN AT CORT FOR A WHILE.
GUESS WHAT?
I PURPOSELY WAITED FOR AN AT THE ENTRANCE OF THE COURT.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT?
HIS FACE CHANGED AND HE STILL DARE TO CONTINUE PLAYING SOCCER.
FUCK YOU LAH! DAH TAKOT MAH, CABOT LORHS. WADEVER.
WHEN AN CAME,
AN.:"DAH SERI, RELAX LUPERKAN JER. AKU KAN ADER. TK GUNE KAU.."
SERI.:I PAUSE AND CRIED RIGHT NEAR THE ENTRANCE.
LUQMAN.:CONTINUE PLAYING SOCCER, ACT AS IF NOTHING HAPPENED.
AN.:HE TURNED AND LOOK AT ME,"EH SERI!ASL KAU NANGIS? DAH LAH CUKOP."
WE CONTINUE OUR WALK.
AN ACCOMPANY TILL 105 AND THEN HE HEADED TO MEET HIS OTHER FRIENDS.
IN THE BUS, I CRY SILENTLY. HAIS.

WHO AM I TO YOU?
YOU PRETEND THAT NOTHING HAPPENED.
YOU GET WHAT YOU WANT AND NOW,
YOU LEFT ME JUST LIKE THAT WITHOUT AN EXPLANATION.

THE MSG I SENT YESTERDAY,

"I don't know what's wrong with you, behaving this way.
U used to say,'I love you'.
U used to say,'I miss you'.
But now, I've no longer heard it from you.
I remember the time before we had any strings tied together,
all your sweet words you used to say to me. And now? What happen?
You've left me alone in darkness, crying helplessly and endlessly,
thinking and wondering what you've been doing but have it cross you mind about me?
I guess you wont reply to my msg right? i knew it."
[and yarhs,he DIDNT]

THE MSG THAT I WANTED TO SENT TONIGHT BUT STILL WONDERING.

"You kept yourself in silent when I need you most. I want to make matters clear between the two of us. I don't want anything from you. I just want a reasonable explanation why you're treating me this way. I won't let you off so easily. Bear that in mind. The more you ignore me, the more I'll hesitate you for an explanation. I've said what I want to,now,it's your turn. Tell me now before things get worst. Don't make e do stupid stuffs that I don't wish to."

ANYONE CAN TELL ME WHETHER I SHOULD OR SHOULD NOT SENT IT?
TAG ME.

BULLSHIT.

OKEYHS. IM BACK TO UPDATE AND SHARE MY PROBLEMS NOW.
THIS FEW DAYS, MY LIFE SUCKS. I MEAN IT.
READ THE RECENT POST AND YOU WILL UNDERSTAND THE STORY.
IF YOU CANT THEN FORGET IT.
TODAY, AROUND 6+PM, I GOT CHANGED AND WENT TO AMK CENTRAL.
BOUGHT SOMETHING.
THEN HEADED TO SERANGOON.
PLANNED TO GO ATIKAH HSE BUT WAS CANCELLED DUE TO SOME PROBLEMS HAD.
SHE NOT ME. DONT WANNA MENTIONED.
TOOK 165 AND DROP OPPOSITE SERANGOON CC.
MET FARHAN[SGS] AT BLOK 126.
THEN SAT DOWN AND CHIT-CHATTED TIL 7.45PM.
HE NEED TO GO TO BUGIS TO MEET HIS BAND MEMBERS, TO PRACTISE HIS PERFORMANCE COMING UP ON SATURDAY. GIG. WELL, MAYBE IM GOING. WITH? HMM. FARHAN I GUESS.
I MEAN THE OTHER FARHAN[PEICAI].
AFTER FARHAN[SGS] LEFT, SAT UNDER THE BLOK ALONE.
MSG-ED VICTORIA.
THEN MEET HER AT 123 AT 8PM.
SHE AND QIU. ONLY.
CHIT-CHATTED AND TALK ABOUT MY PROBLEMS WITH LUQKI.
CRIED AGAIN. AFTER HEARING WHAT THEY SAY.
THEY APOLOGISED FORLYING TO ME ALL THAT. I WAS NEMINDS.
THEN VIC SAYS."YOU KNOW WHAT, WE ACTUALLY WANT TO HELP YOU. WE ASK LUQKI ABOUT YOU BOTH THEN HE SAY DONT INTERFERE.HE WILL SETTLE IT WITH YOU."
AND I SAID,"HUH?HE SAY HE WANNA SETTLE BETWEEN THE TWO OF US?THEN IN THE FIRST PLACE WHY DIDNT HE BOTHER TO MSG OR CALL ME AND SORT THINGS OUT!"
I WAS BURSTING. THEY WERE LIKE,"SERI,RELAX KEYHS?DONT LIKE THAT LEI."
I IGNORE AND CONTINUE CRYING.
THEN VICTORIA ASKED AGAIN,"WHAT DO YOU THINK THE REASON WHY LUQKI DIDNT BOTHER TO REPLY TO MSGS AND ALL?"
I WAS LIKE,"HUH? WHAT DO YOU MEAN?"
THEN SHE CONTINUE,"I MEAN WHAT IS THE POSSIBILITY LARHS."
AND I SAID THAT I HAD NO IDEA.
THEN SHE ADDED."ACTUALLY SERI, HE TOLD ME THAT HIS FEELINGS TOWARDS YOU IS FADING AWAY".
I WAS LIKE,"WHAT!!!".
THEN SHE TOLD ME TO MSG HIM. WHICH I DID.

ME AND VICTORIA'S PLAN.

FIRST MSG SENT: Do you have anything to tell me?
[AND I WAITED FOR 5 MINS, HE DIDNT REPLY.]

SECOND MSG: What's going on between us?
[AND I WAITED AGAIN FOR 10 MINS, HE DIDNT REPLY.]

THEN VIC ASK ME TO CALL HIS HP USING MY HP.
HE DIDNT PICK UP.
THEN SHE TOLD ME TO USE QIU'S HP.
HER NUMBER WAS A PRIVATE ONE.
IT RANG, AND THEN SOMEONE PICK UP.
NOT HIM BUT A GIRL'S VOICE.
HUIQI'S. I KNEW IT.
SHE WAS SAYING,"HELLO,WHOSE THIS?"
AND THEN I SAY,"WHOSE THIS?"
THEN SILENT.
THEN VIC ASK ME TO HANG UP.
I WAS SO FUCK UP.
THEN I CALLED FARHAN[PEICAI].
I ASK HIM WHERE IS HE AND HE SAY HE WAS AT HOME.
HE ASK ME WHY THEN I TOLD HIM EVERYTHING.
I THOUGHT THEY WERE TOGETHER. BUT NO. HE WENT OFF FIRST.
AND THEN WE HANG UP. HE'S THE GOOD FRIEND OF MINE.
HE SAYS,"DAH SERI, KAU TAKE CARE JER, APAPE PICIT AKU, JGN STRESS2. KEYHS?
WE HUNG UP THEN.




YOU USED TO CALL ME DEAR,
YOU USED TO CALL ME SYG.
AND NOW, I NO LONGER HEARD THOSE WORDS.
WHY?
EVERSINCE THE DAY WE MET,
YOU ARE NOT LIKE THE GUY I KNEW BEFORE.
YOU'VE CHANGED.
I MEAN IT.
ALOT.
WHERE ARE ALL YOUR PROMISES?
YOU PROMISE TO BE WITH ME,
YOU PROMISE TO CARE FOR ME AND
ON TOP OF ALL,
YOU PROMISE TO LOVE ME.
NOW AND FOREVER.
BUT NOW? WHAT IS THIS?
CRAPS AND BULLSHITS!
NO WANDER MY GHURLS SAYS,
"SWEET TALKERS ARE MOTHER FUCKERS!"
AND I REALISED ITS TRUE.
AND HEY, DONT THINK YOU CAN RUN AWAY FROM ME.
I WILL NOT LET YOU OFF SO EASILY.
YOU ARE STILL MINE. IT HAS NOT ENDED YET.
I WANT AN EXPLANATION FROM YOU.
I MEAN IT.

SAD AND HURT.

ARGH!

hello. good morning.
just woke up.
and guess what HE didnt even bother to msg me?
what am i? batu?! patung?!
FUCK LAH.
nemind. i will just wait PATIENTLY for your presence.

THANK YOU.

FAST ONE.

11TH JUNE.

STAYED AT HOME.
LAZE AROUND.

12TH JUNE.
WENT TO IKA HSE AT 9AM.
WENT BACK TO MY HSE GOT CHANGED AND MET HIM.
WENT BACK HOME AT AROUND 745PM.

13TH JUNE.
STAYED HOME.
HE DIDNT EVEN MSG.
HAISH =((

14TH JUNE.
WENT FOR REMEDIAL NOT NETBALL.
WAS IN NO MOOD, WENT IN AND SHIRLEY SHOUTED
"SERI, HOW YOU AND LUQKI?"
I SAID,"DUNNO LAH, I MSG HIM THRICE AND HE DIDNT EVEN BOTHER TO REPLY"
SHE SAID"EH, I WANT TELL YOU SOMETHING, BUT YOU CANNOT TELL NIONE HORHX"
I WAS LIKE,"OUH,OKIES."
AND SHE TELL ME..
I WAS SO DAMN SHOCKED AND SUDDENLY MY MOOD ON STUDYING DISSAPEAR.
HAISH.
AFTER REMEDIAL, I MET IKA AND TOLD HER WHAT SHIRLEY SAID.
SHE WAS LIKE,"REALLY?!"
THEN WENT TO GROUNDFLOOR TOILET.
SHE BATH AND I DAYDREAMED.
THEN WENT TO KIPAS BLOK,NEAR THE BASKETBALL COURT THERE.
WAITED FOR AN.
THEN ANOTHER AN CAME.
SLACK FOR A WHILE THEN HEADED TO COURT.
THEY PLAY SOCCER WHILE ME AND IKA SIT AND WATCH.
AT 4+,IKA WANTED TO GO HOME,SO AN SENT HER.
SO I LEFT ALONE WITH VICTORIA ALL.
WATCH ANOTHER AN PLAYED.
ABT 5+,THE CHINESE GIRLS,[VICTORIA AND FRIENDS] WANTED TO GO HOME.
THEN HUIQI ASK HIM WHAT TIME I GO HOME AND I SAID SOON.
THEY WERE LIKE TALKING AND WHISPERING TO ONE ANOTHER.
I KNEW IT.
THEY ARE HIDING SOMETHING FROM ME.
ABOUT ME AND LUQKI.
FUCKED UP.
THEN I WENT MEET IKA AND AN AT 134.
I CRIED A MILLION TEARS.
CRIED REALLY BADLY.
COS I KNEW LUQKI KEPING SOMETHING FROM ME.
I HATE IT.
FUCK!
THEN 6+ WENT HOME.
AN TOLD ME TO GO HOME WITH IKA.
COS I CANT STOP CRYING BADLY.
EYES ARE SWOLLEN.
REALLY BADLY.
THEN I DECIDED TO SENT IKA TO HER DOORSTEP ONLY.
HER MOM ANGRY COS SHE CAME HOME LATE.
THEN I PATAH ALEK TO 121 TO MEET BOTH AN.
CRY AGAIN.
SHARE MY PROBS WITH THEM.
AND AT 830PM,WENT HOME.
IN THE TOILET I KEPT CRYING.
HAIS.

WHATS GOING WOTH US?
WHAT I HAVE DONE?
YOU DIDNT EVEN BOTHER TO REPLY TO MSGS
AND YET, YOU CAN GO AROUND MSG HER.
BULLSHIT.
YOU LIED TO ME.
YOU TOLD ME THAT YOU DIDNT BRING UR HP ALONG.
I HATE YOU JUST.
BUT I LOVE YOU STILL.
I KNEW YOU HIDING SOMETHING FROM ME.
I HEAR WHAT THEY SAID.
HELLO.
I UNDERSTAND CHINES GENDENG.
FUCK, BULLSHIT.
THEY'RE ALL CRAPS.
TELL ME NOW BEFORE THINGS TURN TO WORST.
I DONT WISH TO LOSE YOU.
COS I LOVE YOU NOW.
AND FOREVER.
NO ONE CAN TEAR US APART EXCEPT DEATH.

PS: DONT LET ME DO STUPID STUFFS THAT I'DREALLY DIDNT WANT TO.
COMMITING SUICIDE IS WHAT I JUST WANTING TO DO.
CHOY!!

SYSTAHOOD_06

THINGS AREN'T THE SAME NIMORE.
WE USED TO BE TOGETHER, BUT NOW NOT ANYMORE.
WE LAUGH, WE CRY.
AND NOW, ONE LEFT, FIVE STAYS.
JUST FIVE.
AND WILL BE FOREVER.
FAREWELL THEN.

US BACK IN THOSE DAYS.


NOW US. TODAY.

FRIDAY.

had Netball Training just now.
after Netball Ms Leong and Ms Chan treat us pizza.
YUMMY. ate at AMK there.
PIXEL.

together-NESS.

then i bring ika back to my hse.
had a bath and went to Srgn North.
meet syg.
at 7,Ika went home. left me.
slack till 8.30.
mom called. go home and got changed and meet her n sis at
Cathay Cineleisure.
watch THE OMEN. boring. i mean okayhs lah.
should watched THE NUN instead.
hmm. went back by cab cos we miss the last train.
thanx to MOM for walking "VERY FAST".

UPDATE.

WEDNESDAY.
had Netball Training.
went to school quite late abit.
met Ika at 105 carpark, then saw BABI.
hmmph!
after Training, waited for Hilmy and then headed to
Basketball Court.
met SAYANG. sho cute.
when to Street Soccer. blah. slack.
then went back to North Ave 4.[i tink]
then he got changed,left An, me and Elfe.
then when back to Court.
me and him ONLY. then meet the rest there.
slack till 5.30.
he kissed my cheeks and i went off home.

THURSDAY.
went out with him and An.
went to Paradigm. play pool.
haha, so funny.
he thought me how. so funny.
cant stop laughing.
then at last, i won him a game. keke sak.
after playing, headed to Serangoon Central eat.
then go Court,slack till 7.45.
me and him sat under the blok at 7.45 pm.
then at 945, Hilmy and An came.
went home at 10pm.


MY LOVE FOR HIM WILL NEVER FADE.
I"LL NEVER LET YOU GO.
HOLD ME TIGHT HONEY.
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.
MUAX.

MY PROPERTY.

I LOVE THE WAY HE MAKE ME SMILE.
I LOVE THE WAY HE CARES.
AND ON TOP OF ALL
I LOVE HIM.

BIAR JAUH DI MATA,
NAMUN DEKAT DI HATI.


YOU FILLED MY HEART WITH A LOVE
IT'S NEVER KNOWN
THE WORDS CANNOT BE EXPRESSED
BUT THE FEELINGS CAN BE SHOWN
I'M STILL AMAZED AND BEWILDERED
THAT YOU COULD BE =ALL MINE=.


060606
MEANT TO BE TOGETHER.
HEARTS HIM BITS.
MUAX.

HAPPILY ATTACHED TO HIM.
I LOVE HIM TO THE FULLEST.
MUAX.
AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO DARLING.

__*seriLOVEShim.

*SERI NADZIA BTE SAMSURI & MUHAMMAD LUQMAN HAKIM BIN MOHANI*
THEIR FAIRYTALE STARTED...

LADIES DAY OUT.

woke up at 10.30 am.
had bath and got changed.
search for the Madrasah Form, dont know what thingy.
talk with mom.
took my money and get ready.
blah,blah.
meet Quraishah and Ain at 585.
headed to the mosque to hand in something.
then,meet Nazrina and then Hadirah.
headed to Northpoint.
meet Ernie,nad went to Golden Village.
watched THE BENCHWARMERS.
very funny. haha.
we laugh like crazy.
and i was shivering like hell.
COLD sia.
after the show, headed to Compass.
jalan2 and met Din,Adam and 2 unknown dude.
left at around 8+. i guess.
headed home but b4 that,met sis and go makan.
now,HOME SWEET HOME.

TODAYS PIXEL.
[UPDATE LATER.]
senyumanku.



the childish side of me.




SAYONARA. THANK YOU.
CHIOUS.

SLEEPOVER.

SLEEPOVER at my AUNT HSE.
FRIDAY till SUNDAY.
so many things happened.
FRIDAY NIGHT.
reached my aunt house at around 8.50 pm.
watch TV. WOMEN OF TIMES.
eat while watching.
ENDED at 10 pm sharp.
went to the toilet and bath.
LAY-ED st the bed and see my hp.
HILMY called.
chatted with him till 1.30 am
in between,RAHIMI called at around
at 1230 am.
LINK them and chatted together.
1.30 am conversation ended.
they planned to call later.
so i waited.
and waited.
and waited till i doze of.
woke up at 2.45 am.
checked my phone and had received
2 miss calls and 1 new msg.
its him.
reply his msg and he call me.
chit-chatted till 6.10 am.
then he need to do his prayers.
hung up and cntd at 6.30 am till 8 am.
wow!!

SATURDAY.
went to my aunt's workplace.
[KKH]
watched her dance.
got bored.
i went outside.
call him and chit-chatted.
then hung up cos' i was on my home
already.
reached home,at 3pm.
got changed and call him.
till 6.30 pm.
then hung up cos need to do house chores
msg him and at 12.30 am chit-chatted again.
till 5am.
then i slept while talking.
ahah. too tired i guess. heh.
haha.

boredom

cant help crying without no one notice it.
im bored. im sick and tired of love.
i dont know why.
all the memories we've gone through together,
i kept thinking about it.
im sick and and tired.
and im too losed in you.
my life is incomplete without you.

READERS: I MISS MY TIME TOGETHER WITH HIM.
I MISS ALL THOSE MEMORIES WE SPENT TOGETHER.


enough.
it has end-ed.

WILL NOT UPDATE MY BLOG FOR A FEW DAYS.
SLEEPOVER AT MY AUNT'S PLACE.
CHIOUS.

Netball Trng.

Oraites,today I woke up at 750am and have my shower.
Packed my bag and off to school.
Meet Ika and Khai at blok 105 and off to school.
Come late.
Me,Ika,Ederlyn and Melissa had to run 20 rounds
instead of 15 rounds around the court.
Late mah.But end up,we run only 18 rounds
i guess. Haha.
Coach didnt come so we are the coach.
Trng was not so tough.
But instead,lotsa laughing goin on.
The Sec One played so terribly and we laugh like hell.
End up during the break we seniors
which only consists of 7 of us, the rest never come,
kena[get] scolded for making fun at the juniors
and not showing good examples to them.
blah,blah.. Ms Angeline Chan nag at us.
All the graduation class[N Level peeps] were looking at us.
Paiseh sehh. hmm. Then after break,had mini game.
B division vs C division. haha.
After the whole trng ends,me,ika and the other ika
went to the first floor and have our shower. Nice.
Went off to study corner at blok 101 there. Left me and ika.
Meet Khairul there. Then!!!!
not only him but someone else.
Saiful,Sufi and Bob. sat there and chit-chatted.
They decided to give me teka-teki. So the funny.
I was so slow and end up dunno whats the ans. Haha.
They got fed-up. Due to my slowliness. haha.
Around 115pm, went off and headed to Hougang Mall and ate Mac.
After that,it was raining. Haiyo.
Then eaded to Ika hse. Chill and watch movie.
Nice sia. Doll Master,not that scary lah,
but interesting though.
Took some pixel but i cant manage to put it as something wrong.
Hmm. Fed-up.
Went home at around 6.30pm. Hmm..







TO:SYSTALURPX.



UPDATE ME WHEN WE ARE GOING OUT AND ALL THOSE STUFFS AITE?
AND TO MY DEARIE HADIRAH,GET WELL SOON.
TO DEARIE ERNIE,MS CHAN WAS ASKING ME IF YOU REALLY WANTED
TO CONTINUE IN NETBALL AND I DUDNT SAY ANYTHING.
COS I DUNNO WHATS YOUR CHOICE.
TAG ME AND I'LL HELP YOU TELL CHER ORAITES?
BEEP ME IF YOU NEED ANYTHING.
AND TO DEARIE NAZ AND Q, REMAIN GILER AITE? HEHE.
TAKE CARE GHURLS.
LOVE YOU TO BITS.
MUAX.

harts
seri.